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i need hellllp! i want to get a new livejournal because i want a new name...a very cute name so i can get a paid account. helllp!

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12 Livejournal Friends You Feel Closest To
1. burgertag
2. erosdellastrega
3. xpetex
4. lolliriot
5. ruineddoll
6. cenobyte
7. uhler
8. nothingisscared
9. raigh
10. tootsiepops
11. miss_meliss_a
12. lumpiaman

10 Livejournal Friends You Wish You Knew or Want to Know Better
1. xsecretstarsx
2. alyvengeance
3. chippedheart
4. ophilia
5. go_cry_about_it
6. xsalina
7. hardcorewannabe
8. wickedsquirrel
9. sxepez
10. johnnyagnostic

8 Livejournal Friends With The Most Interesting Journals
1. lolliriot
2. ruineddoll
3. purefixation
4. ophilia
5. raigh
6. erosdellastrega
7. cenobyte
8. hardcorewannabe

6 Livejournal Friends You've Known Over a Year
1. erosdellastrega
2. burgertag
3. lolliriot
4. donnaramona
5. raigh
6. tootsiepops

2 Livejournal Friends Who Would Make a Good Couple
1. fuck_drugs and burgertag
2. lolliriot and poisonthebarn

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why isn't LJ working? i'm going crazy.

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yesterday morning i woke up and got dressed. my mommy had stayed with a friend and by the time i was awake, maggie had already left for her softball game. so sparky and i got ready and waited for my mom to get home so we could catch the last part of maggie's game. so my mom came home and we went to whs. it was super hot. but i wore a sweater and jeans because i didn't want to get sunburned. and later on, on of the team mothers gave me maggie's visor because she never wears it. after the game, we went back to my house so maggie and my mommy could shower. i called justin and told him to come over. dan showed up then justin came over. when my mommy and maggie were ready to go, dan left and the rest of us went to the bean. it was very good, as usual. then we went back to my house. i packed a bag, got laurie's present and justin and i went to his house. he was very chatty all day but as soon as we got to his house he layed on his bed and was all quiet. i wrapped laurie's present and went to talk to justin. he wouldn't tell me what was wrong and i kept asking about things and he would just shake his head. so we ended up arguing and i missed the dinner part of laurie's party. i was pretty pissed at justin for making me miss it. i got the the grill at like 6:30 or something. laurie, meryl and laurie's friends were all there. um...gab, aunya, arian, lauren, janelle and two other people, i forget. katie and sarah? so i talked to katie, sara and lauren for awhile. i had never met them before, they were pretty nice. then meryl came and sat with me and we talked for awhile. i got a coke. it was too late to get any food because everyone was already almost done. carly showed up awhile later. i was glad, i needed her to help me represent PLEHCORE. after everyone was done eating, carly, meryl, janelle and i walked to laurie's house while everyone else went to starbucks and mcdonalds. we waited in front of laurie's house for awhile then when everyone got there, we went inside. we watched jawbreaker. i love that movie, dude. it rules. we hung out, ate cake. i mostly talked to carly. meryl, janelle, lauren, katie and sara left. um...we just hung out. i drank a lot of pepsi. then colby showed up and he was acting very...poopie. carly left at like midnight. there was some drama with laurie and colby. aunya and i watched hedwig. it was a strange movie, i want to watch it again. gab and arian were in the kitchen talking. um...at like 1am, justin came to get me. we went to jack in the box and got cheesesticks then to his house. we showered and some weird stuff happened. we watched my cure movie and just hung out until 4. the we went to sleep and slept until 1. we played super mario brothers lost levels for super NES and dan showed up. justin's dad bought pizza for us. i called my mom to check in and she told me to come home. so justin showered and then he took me home. i got here and she was cleaning my room. she left to go to her friends birthday party. maggie isn't feeling well and sparky is out playing. i just got out of shower and i'm watching this thing on MTV about videos that they couldn't show in the day. i started my period and i have these terrible cramps. =o( i'm just gonna relax and stuff.

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i have a really bad feeling that something happened with justin...i guess i'll soon find out.

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Take the "How slutty are you" Test

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quote of the day:
sex, drugs, alcholol, anarchy and hot topic foreverrrr

thought up by cassie hardcorewannabe and ashleigh

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so today justin, craig, dan and i went to quinn frost's improv friday. it was pretty funny. geno was so good today. i didn't do anytning today, just watched. um...we stopped at the bean and then we went to craig's house. we were there for quite awhile. craig got stoned, justin napped, and we just hung out. craig sold dan a pair of converse. dan finally went shopping for new clothes. we watched maury, craig played xenogears and i just chilled. at like 4:45 i told justin to bring me home because i was getting bored and maggie was leaving soon. i needed to be home to take care of sparky. so i got home and came online. i talked to grigore for awhile. he got his application for camp and i hadn't gotten mine yet. then i thought that they didn't have my new address so i asked my grandma to call the camp leader for me to send me an app. hopefully i can convince rion or justin to come with me. um...maggie left and shortly after, my mommy came home. she took me and sparky out to dinner. she dropped us off at home left to diane's. so it's just me and sparky all night. justin's with craig - he's having a party. um. now i'm talking to melissa and doing something for alex. but i couldn't do this nice thinf for alex without melissa's help...thanks, my friend! (miss_meliss_a) that's about all. i'm going to be home all night so you should expect a few random updates.

i love everyone. except camilla and all camilla look alikes.

oh yeah - before i go, i must show you all the cool people in LJ:
example one
example two

funny stuff.


xoxoxoxoxo

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oh my god.

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the LJ is not working! how could this be? my life is no longer complete.

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would anyone like to be hosted by theVOMIT.com? i'm only hosting one person and i feel like a loser. you'll get your own email address and as much space as you need...email me if you're interested.


xoxox
ashleighcore

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rant time:

friends: what are they? do they even exsist? there's people that are very dear to me and i care about a whole lot. but i wonder how loyal they are to me? they talk about other people to me...then to they turn around and talk about me to other people? why do people fake their friendship? i mean, if you don't like some one...why fake it? i have a few friends...one comes to mind in particular who always say "i don't like her but i'm nice to her anyways because i don't want to hurt their feelings." i used to feel that way about camilla...and now i wish i hadn't faked it at all. no one should. friends mean a lot to me and i would be terribly hurt if some one felt that way about me. now, i get annoyed with people...even my friends. everyone does. and when i'm upset or annoyed with some one, i'll let how i feel be known. and who really sees me as a true friend? people swear that i'm this huge gossip. i'm not. yeah. i talk about things but i don't spill personal details. but where do you draw the line? if you're upset with friend number one and you're tlaking to friend number two about how you feel and how angry or upset you are with friend number one...is that talking shit? is that betraying friend number one?

the punk scene, posers, straight edge, hardcore and everything else: sometimes i hate straight edge kids. where do they get off thinking they're SO much better than anyone else? now i'm straight edge and proud. i'm not proud that i'm "better" than anyone else. i'm proud because i lead a clean and healthy life. but it's terrible when a sxe kid refuses to be friends/date/hang out with people who drink. people straight edge is a personal choice...so is drinking. and what's so wrong with "selling out"? you made the choice to be sober...shouldn't you be able to make the choice to be UNsober? i'm not condoning drinking or drugs in anyway...i just think that anyone can make their own choice. and then this whole thing bothers me about being in the punk or hardcore scene. dude, if you enjoy the music then what else do you need? why do you need to be involved in the scene in order to not be considered a poser? and poser...that's such a stupid concept. everyone gets some ideas from other people. now i hate a hot topic punk as much as the next person...but it's all about the music...not the dye in your hair or how you dress. it's for the music, not the fashion. end of story.

i'm not asking anyone to agree with me at all. i'm just stating how i feel. this is my journal, as you all know.

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i hope some one hurts you as much as you've hurt me.










i hope that you can see what it feels like to feel like you're nothing. i hope you hurt so much. i hope some one makes you feel like shit day in and day out. i hope some one breaks your heart daily. i want you to hurt so much. i want you to feel every pain i've felt.